“Dear Past Jas” is a blog series of short reads with life lessons that I wish I knew growing up and that may resonate with you or inspire you.
I especially struggled with finding confidence and recognizing my self-worth when I was younger. This has put me in situations where I was taken advantage of, mistreated, or overlooked by others, even being in a situation that could have been even more dangerous for myself. I am not perfect but I am a completely different person now than I was years ago, and there are definitely things that I should have done to avoid or learn how to better deal with certain people and encounters.
How did I become so anxious, worried, and overthinking about what other people thought of me? Some factors could be my parents fighting and struggling through their marriage up until they divorced, me being the youngest who was often alone and being given perhaps too much freedom, seeing my older sister get into relationships after another and pressuring me to feel like I needed to grow up faster, and feeling like there was always something wrong with my personality that made others view me as irrelevant.
I don't blame little Jas because she did the best that she could in her state of mind. Sometimes in life as well, you have to learn things the hard way, and every situation helped me grow into a stronger person. If I could go back though, here are some pieces of advice that I wish I could tell my younger self...